Revelation of Passion

  

On Jan 2005, one night in our CG, Steven who is my cell-group leader started to look serious while worshipping our ALMIGHTY GOD; he suddenly looked at me and said, GOD will give us a baby this year as HE had heard my prayer.

I immediately broke down in tears when I heard it as my heart filled with abundant of joy and gladness due to HIS faithfulness. I keep on proclaiming this promise until 30 May 2005 where my gynea told me that I have pregnant for 3weeks. You know what… I jump like a 3 years old kid and keep on praising and thanking HIM for the most wonderful gift in this world. 

But on the 4^th week onwards, I started to have extreme nausea, which I will throw out at least min. 12 times a day; I couldn’t even count what was the maximum… A single mouthful of water will also cause me throwing out non-stop, which I have to sleep in my toilet instead of my bed due to the urgency. 

I couldn’t eat and drink, thus my old problem – gastric started to surface and it get worsen during my pregnancy due to no food intake. I lost at least 5kg of weight less than 2week and struggled with tremendous pain due to excess vomiting. I have no choice but admitted to the hospital for dripping to protect the baby from dehydration. 

I prayed and prayed everyday for the grace of GOD!

Because of my gastric problem, I couldn’t walk or sit but only lying down on the bed like a cooked prawn due to the twisting pain. Almost every day I cried out to GOD for strength and healing power. However, I failed to understand GOD’s intention of why I need to go through such a difficult pregnancy at that point of time. I keep on crying and complaining to GOD why don’t HE heals me instead of having me going through such pain. My gastric pain went severe until none of the gastric pill works well in me. 

My extreme nausea did not stop at 12 weeks but continue for the rest of the months till the baby is born. However, I truly thank GOD for a healthy baby. When sam is born, he is born at 3.1kg with 52cm height. He indeed is a healthy and strong baby despites of all the past conditions.

By the grace of God, it took me only 2 hours to deliver him! We know his gracious hand is upon us always without fail. Even with all the difficulties that HE had put in place, we understand the with purposes behind it. Man will never learn unless they fall. Due to this baby is a gift from GOD which I have asked for, I was told to name him: Samuel – the hand of God!

He has brought us abundant of joy and patience in my family, and most importantly I have learned a lot of lesson from this pregnancy.  

I know I may have failed HIS test but HE has taught me to be strong in spirit and mind. I have also learned to depend on HIM for every situation and decision. HE indeed is a good GOD because I gain more than just having a healthy baby.

Advice to pick-up: Endurance, patience, love, and remain faithful in HIM all the times despite of any circumstances. As HE never fails.