Samuel – the hand of GOD … March 3, 2008
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On Jan 2005, one night in our CG, Steven who is my cell-group leader started to look serious while worshipping our ALMIGHTY GOD; he suddenly looked at me and said, GOD will give us a baby this year as HE had heard my prayer.
I immediately broke down in tears when I heard it as my heart filled with abundant of joy and gladness due to HIS faithfulness. I keep on proclaiming this promise until 30 May 2005 where my gynea told me that I have pregnant for 3weeks. You know what… I jump like a 3 years old kid and keep on praising and thanking HIM for the most wonderful gift in this world.
But on the 4th week onwards, I started to have extreme nausea, which I will throw out at least min. 12 times a day; I couldn’t even count what was the maximum… A single mouthful of water will also cause me throwing out non-stop, which I have to sleep in my toilet instead of my bed due to the urgency.
I couldn’t eat and drink, thus my old problem – gastric started to surface and it get worsen during my pregnancy due to no food intake. I lost at least 5kg of weight less than 2week and struggled with tremendous pain due to excess vomiting. I have no choice but admitted to the hospital for dripping to protect the baby from dehydration.
I prayed and prayed everyday for the grace of GOD!
Because of my gastric problem, I couldn’t walk or sit but only lying down on the bed like a cooked prawn due to the twisting pain. Almost every day I cried out to GOD for strength and healing power. However, I failed to understand GOD’s intention of why I need to go through such a difficult pregnancy at that point of time. I keep on crying and complaining to GOD why don’t HE heals me instead of having me going through such pain. My gastric pain went severe until none of the gastric pill works well in me.
My extreme nausea did not stop at 12 weeks but continue for the rest of the months till the baby is born. However, I truly thank GOD for a healthy baby. When sam is born, he is born at 3.1kg with 52cm height. He indeed is a healthy and strong baby despites of all the past conditions.
By the grace of God, it took me only 2 hours to deliver him! We know his gracious hand is upon us always without fail. Even with all the difficulties that HE had put in place, we understand the with purposes behind it. Man will never learn unless they fall. Due to this baby is a gift from GOD which I have asked for, I was told to name him: Samuel – the hand of God!
He has brought us abundant of joy and patience in my family, and most importantly I have learned a lot of lesson from this pregnancy.
I know I may have failed HIS test but HE has taught me to be strong in spirit and mind. I have also learned to depend on HIM for every situation and decision. HE indeed is a good GOD because I gain more than just having a healthy baby.
Advice to pick-up: Endurance, patience, love, and remain faithful in HIM all the times despite of any circumstances. As HE never fails.
A new beginning with HIS faithfulness … January 2, 2008
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On 25 Dec 2007, Anna – my cell group leader’s wife suggested me to give sharing on this Friday – 28 Dec 2007. Let me describe a little bit about my feeling at that point of time. I was shocked when I heard that cox I never give sharing before plus giving sharing need a lot of understanding from the bible = God’s word in order to interpret better.
However, I did not reject it and said “ok” to her immediately. I told myself this is a new beginning and it is time to start now …
When I was on the way home as my hubby drove me, I started to wonder what I should share on this Friday…. Of course praying is the most important thing to do at that point of time. As I was praying to GOD, there is one word that flashes thru my mind which is faithfulness. I know I have to share about HIS faithfulness but I do not know where to start and how to start. I continue to pray to GOD and asking for precise message on how to start. To be honest, at that point of time, I am concern because I do not know where to find HIS scripture talking about HIS faithfulness. The bible is so thick and until now I have not finish reading it, even I have finished reading some of the books but I have totally forgotten about the details.
As I continue praying, I started to flip through the bible. Guess what …. GOD somehow leads me to the book of Roman (my favorite book). I saw Roman Chapter 3 – God’s faithfulness as a title in NIV & NBV. I was shocked, because God again reveals HIS faithfulness to me just in time and precise! HE has been very faithful to me and answers my prayers most of the times. When I asked for precise guide and HE really lead me to the actual book and chapter itself.
Can you see how faithful HE is!! I know all these happened not just by coincidence or by luck.
IT IS HIM WHO MAKE IT HAPPENED!
In fact for the past few months while I was on maternity leave, I have some ample time to do some research and reading through web. I started to read Rachel’s blog (which has been posted since May’07) and her posts have inspired me. I started to ponder and wonder what have I been achieving and doing since then… I decided to change and improve – this is my New Year resolution. If you have read about my the other post “how I started my blog”, you’ll probably understand better.
I have gone thru the highest peak & lowest moments in life when I was 23 years old. But It was my turning point. THANK YOU GOD!
With years of experience gain in the corporate world, it has molded me to be a bold person in my career and life. However, I have been living in a very sinful life in my workplace. I’ve involved in the political games in the company within the department, and now expanded to inter-department. As one of the middle management, I have to make a lot of business decision even causing people losing their job.
In fact, I struggled and feel very bad about it. Cox I am a Christian… how can I do such things… I felt so lousy and guilty about it. I repent and repent numerous times until one day, GOD told me, what has been done cannot be undoing, don’t look back and move on – living a fruitful life which brings HIM glory instead. After that I told myself, I must move forward – no. 1 = not repeating the same mistake – be a conscious sinner, no. 2 = glorify HIS name instead of disgrace HIS name in all times.
See… HE is so faithful again!
HE has blessed me and my hubby a lot since we came to Singapore – first our studies even we were working full-time, marriage, finances, maid, my lovely 2 kids, family and friends. Each time when HE pour out more, I told myself that I have to quickly start-up something for HIM – all just about HIM.
This is the 1st result of HIS faithfulness that reveal in my life. With HIS faithfulness, I have learned about:
1. crisis in life bring blessings 2. difficulties mold our character and change our behavior
As I continue to read about the book of Roman, GOD reveals even more to me….Chapter 3 shares about his faithfulness, while chapter 8 talks about living in spirit. In fact, with discernment, many times we know what is right and wrong. Crucial is what’s our choice!
Whether we want to consciously making an effort to live in a Godly life (in spirit) or otherwise. When we have decided our willingness, the next question is how much we want it … In fact all good and bad things happened around us is just part of HIS master plan in our life which serve us good as he is molding our character so that we are confidence of expectation of salvation. (Roman 5:4)
Paul said in Roman 2:7 – “He will give eternal life to those who “persist” (meaning continuously with conscious effort) in doing what is good, seeking after the glory and honor and immortality that GOD offers.
In layman term, everyone has a spirit but probably our spirit knows only ABC but God spirit know A-Z or unlimited. And God’s plan for us required skill and knowledge from A-Z. Hence we need to have the character and knowledge to work out the plan of God which required A-Z.
The moment we accept Jesus Christ, we entered into God’s master plan for us. Even though many events – good or bad things and even we do not know what future world going to be but one things we know and very sure is we know who hold the future.
God promised that “all things” work together for good to those that love God (Roman 8:28)
Besides he will never give something that we cannot bear (1 Corinthian 10:13)
Despite all things that happen, he will never fail us and forsake us (Hebrew 13:5) Though everyone else is a liar, God is true, as scripture say, “He will be proved right in what he says, and he will win his case in Court” (Roman 3:4)
In the nutshell – A new beginning starts with unconditionally surrender of your life!
1. Present ourselves as living scarifies (Refrain from sinning)
2. Intentionally and consciously changing our mentality, thinking, lifestyle, speech, behavior from worldly to Godly. (Renewing our minds)
3. Living using your heart to know the will of God rather than following the behavior or custom of this world.
4. Living in spirit = let Holy spirit controls your mind.
Even wrong doing or mistake has been made; It is part of his plan. Most importantly is your heart follows his will. Bcox we know whatever we have in mind and wanted to do here is just very small part of molding our spiritual walk. It is just a beginning…..
I strongly believe that it always begin with an intention or conscious effort, only continuous seeking with pure heart will lead us to the right path of God. Hence it may not be necessary not good if we would like to start with something intentionally / pre-planned bcox it will give us different kind of understanding & experience in walking thru our spiritual life towards HIS master plan.
I hope I can inspire some of you here after reading this. Probably start thinking of something today what your New Year resolution is.
Abigail – the source of joy… December 13, 2007
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Early in the morning at 4-6am+ on 17 Oct 2007, I felt abdominal pain on my tummy… so I went to toilet as what you and I will normally do… but after awhile the pain roll-up again even after the toilet. This time round I know she is arriving soon after 38weeks of waiting and endurance.
Guess what, I quickly ran to the toilet to take a quick shower, wash my hair and blew my hair, con-currently I got my helper to ring my hubby up to inform him about this good news.
You may wonder how about the pain… is it gone?
The pain did not stop there of course. It continues with an interval of 3-5 min each time. When the pain getting more intense each time, I took a deep big breathe and relax. After which I continue with what I want to do to distract myself from the pain. BUT I forgot to take my breakfast! This is important in case you do not know if you are delivering in the morning.
It gives you strength and you will not be vomiting due to medication.
At about 7am+ almost 8am, I reached hospital and the nurse quickly pushes me in to the delivery ward. When the nurse checks on me, she said I have dilated 8cm which can be delivered anytime NOW! I remembered it was about 8:15am and the baby can be out before 8:45am.
She hurriedly phoned the doctor up and the doctor in fact just woke up. But she claimed that she will be able to arrive before 8:45am. I wonder how?
As my contraction getting more intense, I can feel my back and stomach are so tight like MC 100 times more..BUT the worst part was my back ache… Oh my Lord, I can’t take this pain as it was really bad! I can bear the contraction pain but not this one!!!!!
In fact, I have no strength to push it out as the pain is way beyond words can describe. In fact I struggled a lot with my back ache even during my pregnancy due to my nature of work.
Baby is supposed to be out by 8:45am but did not come out as her mummy is lying down on the bed relaxingly enduring the pain. Deep inside my heart, I cried out to GOD and asked GOD for strength and help! I told Jesus, please help me.. I can’t imagine the pain he had gone through at the Calvary 2000 years ago. My pain is just nothing as compare to his. His pain brings life, hope and freedom to mankind. It is so meaningful and glorious! While mine….
Believe or not, at 9am+, GOD send me an angel, she (one of the nurse) motivates me, asking me …
“Do you want to change your sitting position? As it may be better to ease your pain while you are delivering…”
Of course I listened and changed my sitting position. Cox I can’t be letting my baby waiting for too long as she supposed to be out by 8:45am.
Thank You GOD! After changing the sitting position, the pain has been reduced and it was so easy to push her out. Within 5 minutes, she is shown! I remembered the time was about 9:13am.
In fact, I never believe that delivery can be so easy if you got the right position, right strength and strong determination, of course most importantly GOD in your heart!
I give all glory and praises to GOD!
She is my 2nd one! She shall be called Abigail! The source of joy…
Advice to pick-up: SIMPLY JUST RELAX and TRUST on HIM!
